okay, well im not actually dressed up. and i really do have no where to go. at this point in my life, i am at a weird age. im at the age where i should be getting more freedom, but im still controlled by my parents. just an awkward situation overall. but the thing is with my life, since i am arabic and muslim, its not encouraged for girls to go out all the time; well at least culturally its not excepted for us. so, i stay home more than the normal american teen. no, i dont have a boyfriend or anything like that. i know i may talk about boys a lot but to tell you the truth, dont laugh, but we dont primarily look at a boy like "ooh, id date him" or something along those lines. we think "is he husband material?" hahah ok u can laugh, but its true. ask any girl. if she denys it, she's lying. i think a lot of girls think like that actually when we hit that age.
I've always fantisized about love, having the perfect man and all that good stuff. the one burden weighing me down is the fact that i have to get at least my bachelors degree in order to start "looking". i guess a little before then but still, its a long time. people are always telling me, "enjoy it! you're young! you'll hate being married" i think that the older generation hates being married because they didnt do it right. they didnt find the men they actually had feelings for; at least the women in our family. a man just married a woman if she knew how to cook food and was decent looking. sad. i know. but thats how it goes. im hoping to find that someone who doesnt think like that, although i can cook and, im not bad looking if i say so myself.
i believe the more patient a woman is in waiting for her man to arrive, the better he will be. i hope its true because i've been waiting and i will be waiting. that thought always gives me comfort. a couple minutes ago, before i wrote this blog, i was acutally thinking how much i have a boring life right now and seeing everyones statuses and tweets how they're all going party and out with their boyfriends, i coudlnt help but be jealous. then i thought, in a couple years, God willing, i will be able to do all those things i wanted to do with someone i love and my parents acceptance. i really cant wait. untill then, one can only wait for their prince charming. hah. yeah. lemme get through my first year of college before i do the thinking. i will be in my room sewing and making clothes, trying to start my career in fashion. yeah, thats what ill be doing.
God be with you all, including all my cousins in the Arab countries fighting for freedom, and norway. Allah be with those families inshAllah.
Peace
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
im baaaaaaaack! and here to stay :D
Its been a loooong couple of months but im back for good. Here i go, opening my big ass mouth again.
nothing has been going on in my life AT ALL. besides the fact that i am taking summer classes and just doing house duties as the 18 year old sister/daughter that i am. i dont mind it, its just that i dont see any of the people i want to see anymore. my family needs me though, and thats most important. So here i am, on blogger (no offense<3) on a friday night, drinking my hot cup of sleepy time tea. i guess i dont mind right now but while everyone is out having a life, this is how i live mine. what a poor girl, you may think. nah, im used to it, i always reply. i really dont mind. if we all went out and did the same things, drunk the same beer, partied at the same club, life would be pretty freaking boring if you ask me. we need some cool people in this world who dont need to do that kinda stuff to have a good life. i would MUCH rather be at the local coffee shop sippin on something hot and having a good conversation with a few of my friends than sippin on some spiked cup of 7 UP. just sayin, iknow how it is people. im not that sheltered.
so, one of the high lights in my life is school. fun i know. im currently taking a speech class at the local college. the class consists of people of all ages, which makes me feel so cool. i cant lie. the weird part about this is that im just now starting my first year of college and it feels like i started over. it feels like im in high school alllll over again. eeeek. i dont wanna even think about early high school right now. i feel inferior to every one and i feel like i should stay out of everyones way. i def did not feel that when i was a senior in high school. i felt like i was on top of the world. i felt like i was the Blair Woldorf of the school, even though i was far from it. Any way, i hope its just because its my first class and i am anxious. i found all this confidence in highschool, i just hope it doesnt go to waste!
Also in school, i realized that men really dont change. Soccer boy, a quite striking young man who happens to be Arabic, like me :), caught my eye the first day of class. uh oh, i thought to myself, until i saw what a doucher this guy was. soccer boy had earings, an armani exchange shirt, skinny jeans, and a pair of the annoying vans that every white boy owns. in case you didnt know, thats the definition of a doucher. i dont even know if a doucher is a word. do men ever grow up? if a man 2 years my senior is still dressing like this, and texting his whitey tidey girlfriend, and still never got the hint that he needs to start behaving, will he ever get the hint???!!! i really hope he does. are there any good men in the world??!!?!?! im finding that hard to believe. College is about to be another loooonnggg 4 years.
nothing has been going on in my life AT ALL. besides the fact that i am taking summer classes and just doing house duties as the 18 year old sister/daughter that i am. i dont mind it, its just that i dont see any of the people i want to see anymore. my family needs me though, and thats most important. So here i am, on blogger (no offense<3) on a friday night, drinking my hot cup of sleepy time tea. i guess i dont mind right now but while everyone is out having a life, this is how i live mine. what a poor girl, you may think. nah, im used to it, i always reply. i really dont mind. if we all went out and did the same things, drunk the same beer, partied at the same club, life would be pretty freaking boring if you ask me. we need some cool people in this world who dont need to do that kinda stuff to have a good life. i would MUCH rather be at the local coffee shop sippin on something hot and having a good conversation with a few of my friends than sippin on some spiked cup of 7 UP. just sayin, iknow how it is people. im not that sheltered.
so, one of the high lights in my life is school. fun i know. im currently taking a speech class at the local college. the class consists of people of all ages, which makes me feel so cool. i cant lie. the weird part about this is that im just now starting my first year of college and it feels like i started over. it feels like im in high school alllll over again. eeeek. i dont wanna even think about early high school right now. i feel inferior to every one and i feel like i should stay out of everyones way. i def did not feel that when i was a senior in high school. i felt like i was on top of the world. i felt like i was the Blair Woldorf of the school, even though i was far from it. Any way, i hope its just because its my first class and i am anxious. i found all this confidence in highschool, i just hope it doesnt go to waste!
Also in school, i realized that men really dont change. Soccer boy, a quite striking young man who happens to be Arabic, like me :), caught my eye the first day of class. uh oh, i thought to myself, until i saw what a doucher this guy was. soccer boy had earings, an armani exchange shirt, skinny jeans, and a pair of the annoying vans that every white boy owns. in case you didnt know, thats the definition of a doucher. i dont even know if a doucher is a word. do men ever grow up? if a man 2 years my senior is still dressing like this, and texting his whitey tidey girlfriend, and still never got the hint that he needs to start behaving, will he ever get the hint???!!! i really hope he does. are there any good men in the world??!!?!?! im finding that hard to believe. College is about to be another loooonnggg 4 years.
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