i wrote this on my phone so its gonna seem a little weird. but here i go venting to u guys

the lesson learned today was not to let anyone take over your life to the point whwere they determinewhether youre happy or not. i made that mistake... youd think id learn the first time... or the second time... or the fifth time... or the hundreth time... i cant keep falling easy like this......the lewow, ive been focusing on the wrong stuff for the past few days. its like i as trying to force something that wasnt gonna even exist. i completely wasted my time and energy just even thinking about the subject... i hate that i did that. it did absolutely nothing in return. i would percieve something amazing  in the future over one small thing. give me an inch, i take a mile. just because one small thing happened doesnt mean it means anything major... and i gotta realize that when im picking friends, lovers and trustworthy people. its really misleading to urge a person on like that then let it go nowhere. like that whole week was a waste of my time. ive done this so many times its not even funny.